There are days, or weeks, where there seems like a never ending string of bad days, stressful moments, or singeing memories that threaten to swallow you alive. When you're caught in the middle of it, it seems like you can never get out in one piece, and you're tormented by everything. Every song, every conversation, every step up your staircase.
On those days, I take a drive out to the farm. I spend over 30 minutes on the road, with the sound off, thinking. I think about everything, from why I'm feeling upset, to why I'm letting something get to me, to what I might be having for dinner in a few hours. I sit and I simmer in my car, until I reach the farm. I then put on my pasture boots, and I immediately take off to find May. The second my eyes are on her, everything, all of my outside thoughts, my feelings, my memories, my emotions restart, and I'm left to dance around in a silent mind, at peace.
In all honesty, it's part peace and part frustration, as I usually have to chase her down and then deal with leading her in, but you know, it's a recharge all the same. When I'm out there in the pastures or in the arena, spending whatever time I'm spending with her, everything else is irrelevant.
I've spent the better part of two and a half years searching for something or someone who could wipe away my hard days, and all along it was out in the middle of nowhere. All along it was a horse.